Found this through the spnnewsletter comm. Hope you don't mind if I comment.
Here's the thing: I kinda had this weird Dean dislike [can never hate him] these past couple episodes. He pitied himself too much, I told myself. He whines about his problems too much even though [Sam/Castiel/Bobby/Everyone Else] have worse problems. I've seen everyone else complain about him whining about his sad, sad life, but then I came to realize that hey, he never whined half as much as people say he did. He's only been doing it for the past couple episodes because he has been so broken by what has happened to him. He has tried to be so strong for his family, taking most of the brunt of Sam's selfishness [not that I have a dislike for Sam, but that's not the question] earlier before realizing his fate. Dean's way of being selfish is by being selfless. The wisecracking, womanizing Dean? That's the defense mechanism talking. He had to have a front for all that he's suffered throughout his life. Is it his fault that he's had to take so much in? If it were any sane human being, he/she would've tried to kill him/herself, before even discovering the whole Michael/Angels bullshit. The beauty of Dean is that he's stronger than any character on the show, despite lacking supernatural power that the rest of Team Free Will possess. Another thing I love is that Dean is smart. It's not portrayed often - Dean's having dropped out [?] resulted in the fan/canon coming to the conclusion that Dean = dumb which is. No. Just no. He has killer instinct for all things... well, supernatural. He was actually one step ahead of Sam sometimes. He... uh, read Chuck Pahlaniuk. I dunno, the show provides many examples of his understated intelligence, but does not dwell on it. Well.
Maybe the most important reason why I got drawn into Dean was because he was a lot like me. And a lot like you. He was, quite undoubtedly, the most human of all the characters in the show. He faces the moral dilemma of having to choose, the struggle of blind/passive obedience vs. active participation/rebellion, being a good brother vs. being a good son... the list goes on. He has loved more than any character in this show, and it shows just how much he's hurt by giving so much. He does it anyway. He's got his flaws: the self-esteem issue, the words he's probably said on occasion, being driven by emotions sometimes [to a fault], yet - hasn't everyone experienced any of these things at least once? Does it make Dean less of an awesome charcater if he fails at being perfect and goes on being human? Because see, despite these weaknesses that I presented, he's more than made up for it by his strengths, his determination. And, you argue, if he were so strong, would he have played with the possible choice of saying "Yes" to Michael? YES! He has been wrung like a sponge, with nothing more to give because the world expects and expects and he cannot fight back. This will be his time of weakness, but when he's got himself sharpened (and that is why I believe that Castiel beating him up will be good for him), he'll come out the best pencil of them all, leaving a mark more lasting than any of them haters ever can.
And it's 2am and I'm incoherent, so I apologize for the possible bull/TL;DR of this.
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10/4/10 18:14 (UTC)Here's the thing: I kinda had this weird Dean dislike [can never hate him] these past couple episodes. He pitied himself too much, I told myself. He whines about his problems too much even though [Sam/Castiel/Bobby/Everyone Else] have worse problems. I've seen everyone else complain about him whining about his sad, sad life, but then I came to realize that hey, he never whined half as much as people say he did. He's only been doing it for the past couple episodes because he has been so broken by what has happened to him. He has tried to be so strong for his family, taking most of the brunt of Sam's selfishness [not that I have a dislike for Sam, but that's not the question] earlier before realizing his fate. Dean's way of being selfish is by being selfless. The wisecracking, womanizing Dean? That's the defense mechanism talking. He had to have a front for all that he's suffered throughout his life. Is it his fault that he's had to take so much in? If it were any sane human being, he/she would've tried to kill him/herself, before even discovering the whole Michael/Angels bullshit. The beauty of Dean is that he's stronger than any character on the show, despite lacking supernatural power that the rest of Team Free Will possess. Another thing I love is that Dean is smart. It's not portrayed often - Dean's having dropped out [?] resulted in the fan/canon coming to the conclusion that Dean = dumb which is. No. Just no. He has killer instinct for all things... well, supernatural. He was actually one step ahead of Sam sometimes. He... uh, read Chuck Pahlaniuk. I dunno, the show provides many examples of his understated intelligence, but does not dwell on it. Well.
Maybe the most important reason why I got drawn into Dean was because he was a lot like me. And a lot like you. He was, quite undoubtedly, the most human of all the characters in the show. He faces the moral dilemma of having to choose, the struggle of blind/passive obedience vs. active participation/rebellion, being a good brother vs. being a good son... the list goes on. He has loved more than any character in this show, and it shows just how much he's hurt by giving so much. He does it anyway. He's got his flaws: the self-esteem issue, the words he's probably said on occasion, being driven by emotions sometimes [to a fault], yet - hasn't everyone experienced any of these things at least once? Does it make Dean less of an awesome charcater if he fails at being perfect and goes on being human? Because see, despite these weaknesses that I presented, he's more than made up for it by his strengths, his determination. And, you argue, if he were so strong, would he have played with the possible choice of saying "Yes" to Michael? YES! He has been wrung like a sponge, with nothing more to give because the world expects and expects and he cannot fight back. This will be his time of weakness, but when he's got himself sharpened (and that is why I believe that Castiel beating him up will be good for him), he'll come out the best pencil of them all, leaving a mark more lasting than any of them haters ever can.
And it's 2am and I'm incoherent, so I apologize for the possible bull/TL;DR of this.